I'm beginning to wonder if I've lost my writing "Ooomph". It seems when I began this blog, the stories and topics just flowed and poured out easily - I'd get an idea and immediately stop what I was doing and just sit down and write. That just never happens to me much anymore.
It's not like the subject of my writings doesn't present itself anymore - when I change my 22 month old's diaper he flops around and squeals like some sort of combination of what I have experienced when taking a hook out of a blue gill's mouth and trying to get my cat to swallow a pill... I am still a working mother and have frustrations and passions and precious moments where I look into my darling childrens' eyes and wish I could freeze that moment in time for all eternity. I certainly have hundreds of experiences daily that could be turned into hundreds of stories - but yet, my blog writing seems to have shriveled up and died.
Maybe it's because I've found other creative outlets in my career and my community work and I'm putting my Ooomph energy toward those projects. Maybe it has something to do with the scary bouts of depression and panic I experienced shortly after Niko was born - part of me feels like that experience changed me forever and I'll never be quite the same old Gerah that I was.
Who knows. I will say that I refuse to "quit" this blog anytime soon. There are too many poop stories and crazy mommy rants that I have in me still waiting to come out.
Ah, yes. Niko has found the cookies and has covered his face with chocolate and has probably shoved a few of the cookies in the DVD player. I must go be the evil mother I am and pry the goodies from his chubby little sticky fingers.
Not to worry, Gerb. There's nothing wrong with your creative brain; it's just putting its energy elsewhere.
Remember, you have 2 kids now and a job. Your time isn't as abundant.
Posted by: Ellen Altamore | April 16, 2008 at 02:38 PM
Even Superman had to take a vacation. You'll get your blogging mojo back again someday and if not...well, this site will make one heck of a scrapbook for the kids to read (when they are adults).
Posted by: Mel | April 20, 2008 at 02:02 PM
I've never tried to wean, I've missed doses before, sometimes because I didn't have the money for my co-pay for 2 or 3 days and let me tell you something.....super-bitch turns into mighty bitch who then bitch slaps whore-bitch. I'm not kidding you.......I hate it.
I won't give you my big speech about depression being a chemical imbalance and you can't control that anymore than you can diabetes, cancer, thyroid disorder....without medication that is......think about it.
Posted by: Jerri Ann | May 06, 2008 at 01:41 PM
i've said before...even if you can just write once a month...that would be great. i think you are a busy working mom of 2. keep writing! welcome to your 30's!
Posted by: jcn | May 08, 2008 at 01:24 AM
I go through ups and downs in my blogging-life too. I'll observe various things in my day to day life, but then don't have the time/energy to sit down and write.
Two things: (1) I've been meaning to tell you that your writing style is very similar to Barabar Kingsolvers (I"m reading Animal, Vegetable, Miracle right now) and I mean this as a compliment b/c she's my all time favorite writer! and (2) I've watched the first three episodes of The Tudors and LOVE IT!!
in regard to your last post - hang in there and call if you ever need to chat!
Posted by: Andrea V | May 08, 2008 at 10:57 PM
Fake poop is ok, but fake blog posts are unusual to say the least. Don't worry, you'll get your mo-jo back in no time. Meanwhile the sleep deprived haze of child rearing can be a tremendous inspiration. If only to find the energy to commit it to the blog. If only ...
Posted by: QualityBargainz | May 14, 2008 at 09:29 PM
i'm back. you should stay. i love reading you, and you're an inspiration for my nascent child-wanting aspirations...
keep on keepin on, gerah. you do a good job.
Posted by: jen | August 19, 2008 at 12:26 PM